So, heres the brief of whats been going on these past couple of weeks.
Michael Jackson passed away and with that, a part of my life began to repeat itself. He helped me through a very rough period in my life, some experiences I care not to explain to many, for I hate to repeat them, but with the passing of Michael came some point in my life that hit me once more. He was that person, that with just a few notes of a song I'd forget what mayhem was going on around me and just relax, his voice would soothe my soul and calm my mind. I felt numb. I lost my appetite and many nights sleep. I wasn't sure how to express myself and in alot of ways, I couldn't express myself, it's no secret I don't emote in public or infront of others. So, I shutdown.
I didn't want to feel this anymore, so thats when I felt everything and with that, came relief. I felt happy, because you know what? A has legend past, but even with leaving this world, I still feel he IS here. He will never be forgotten. There is so much he created that I don't think his presence will ever shadow and disappear. I love celebrating the life he had and remembering the times.
Thankyou Michael, thankyou for everything.
An extra big thankyou to all of you who helped me through this time, you know who you are!