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I've been suddenly overwhelmed with a state of shock and many other emotions that are under such themes.

I have just found out that a fellow vlogger, Rodger Swan has passed away.

I'm crying, crying alot.

"Why feel so attached to this guy?" you ask, well I came to know of this youtube'er before my trip to Tokyo two years ago and straight away his videos explained so much of the Japanese culture that you wouldn't get through a superficial television show, he was kind, polite and generally creating vlogs to help others. He was the same age as me, which made it easier for me to take in, I could relate.

I thus, was influenced to create my own vlogs from my own visit, hoping to share my experiences to anyone interested in the same cultural experiences I was looking for. From then on, I have been creating vlogs ever since.

He had just began his "second chapter" moving from 'Tokyo Swan' to 'Iwate Swan', which made me feel really happy for the guy, he was independent and it was totally amazing to see how much he had matured in the years he had spent in Japan.

It ended too short, his time was too short. It sucks that I have have to read this adventure of his has ended so god damned soon. I am feeling so angry that this kind, helpful and caring mans life has come to an end. WHY? Was he too good for this world? What, what is it? I just can't figure it out.

I have never directly have met him, but through watching such intimate times of his life I felt close to him. HE DID NOT DESERVE THIS. Oh man, what the hell am I trying to put forward here? I'm trying not to end this on an angry note, but it is really hard not to. I'm still crying.

Thankyou Rodger, thankyou so much for what you have inspired me to do creatively. You made such an impact in such a short time, you will be remembered through the imprint you made here on the vlogging community.

xX Rest In Peace Rodger (Tokyo/Iwate) Swan Xx